Progression

Okay, today wasn't so bad. I have begun to change my life somewhat. Yesterday on the train I decided that I am not just going to say something, I'm going to do it like I used to. So my three words of motivation became determination, will, sacrifice. So when I got home I politely gave my son about 30 minutes to tell me what happened to him throughout the day, then I threw him int he bathtub, cleaned the room, took out the bathroom trash, and put him to bed. Once that was done I put in an hour or two into studying fluid mechanics.

Today I spent about two hours at work sparingly studying as well.

At work I have changed my attitude as well. Since one of my co-workers has it out for me and has her little Mini-me trying to take my spot, I decided to make my turnover rate of work more noticeable. So sucks for her...

As for my family problems, I have decided to just say to hell with it for now. It was defiantly a relationship I cherished, but shyt I cant deal with the stress. I am on the edge and until I can pull myself up I'm not going to let push me over the limit. My son's life is at stake as well as mines. I cant keep putting us on the side to help family that only cares about themselves. No more sacrificing my last, because when it comes back to me they show up to take that too.

That also means that I am no longer sacrificing for my boyfriends either. I decided that if you ain't shyt without me, then what the hell do I need you for. I mean I am already raising one boy to a man, why would I take on another that I didn't even create.

Well besides all that today I accomplished studying, I hit some credit bills, Paid my CC bill off(1 of them), and I'm waiting patiently for a damn response from my last two credit killers.

Pray that I get an A on this damn test tomorrow. Tired of seeing the damn Indians and Africans doing better than me in class with Sunoco shirts on.